H showed up for the C session yesterday, and I think it went okay overall. The C asked to see him alone next week. He was not overly, um, enthusiastic about that, but he allowed the appointment to be scheduled.
I'm certain of two things: 1-H does want to be with me, and is willing to do some hard things to prove that. 2-He seems to have little remorse--it's still entirely my fault that he stopped caring.
I'm feeling kind of ambivalent about all of it. Part of me is happy and grateful to be here now. Part of me is skeptical of it all and ready to defend at any sign of attack. Overall the happy side is more powerful.
