ya it's snowing up here, supposed to get like 20" ugh!! it's not so much that i don't like the snow, I do, hey I've got 4 wheel drive. it's that h left this am at 9:30 and I don't know when I will see him again but i know that when I do...he will be exaughsted from the storm. also a little bummed cause these storms are not totaly predictable there is some waiting time and sometimes that waiting time is spent down there ( bout 25 miles south of home) so this afternoon h had lunch in a resteraunt (by himself but the one he took ow to) and then waiting for more snow to fall went to the appartment to get some rest. just the mention of the appartment bugged me, he didn't intend to go there was going to buddies but buddie was already asleep so he ended up at the apartment. just unsettling for me but h knows it and called as soon as he woke and was talkative and told me to call him when I am going to sleep (otherwise I would not have still have hard time calling him as if it's still not ok)
I worry sometimes, I don't want to push him away and it seems the way he came home was by me just "goind dark" and acting "as if" well what do you do once they come home????
I think this morning I told h like 5 times that I love him, even once called him and said "do you know" h "know what" "how much I love you" I haven't said it for so long I want to say it all the time but can't. I suppose now it is safe? he is home right?
