Yeah, I think I know where you're coming from with letting our Ses know we're okay. I'm reinvigorated to do just this...and do it NOW!
Quote: I know I need to lay off waiting for some grand gesture and learn to appreciate the small stuff, cause hey after all before he left it was the small stuff that I was looking for.
Ahhh...truth reverberating in my ears. I think we all need to constantly take stock in the little stuff and definitely not get caught up on that one gesture. Patience, right? Ugh!
You're sounding great, LL. Thanks again for your support.
LL, thing sound good at your house..hang in there with the cabin fever and the little kids...spring is just around the corner..I like what Jim said about men and romance though...I so want my h to be that "kind" of guy, but he never has been..so why would I think he will become one!!! Take care Sue
thanx for asking, I am a bit down, it's snowing AGAIN!! which is very nice for the money and it does make things all purty and stuff BUT, it takes h away, out to plow, down in that area, getting stuff ready, waiting it out, taking a nap at the appartment cause when he called buddie he was already asleep himself. so LL is insecure and tired and feeling a bit like a litte girl afraid that her hot new boy friend is going to cheat on her with every little blondie that talks nice to him, ya know.
time to get over it, cause ya know what. I aint to shabby myself!!! and h knows that, and isn't going to run off with any little blondie, not the pittiful sad woman who is now leaving her h as a result of their stupidity and will be alone cause my h made the right choice in comming home to be with ME!! and not with anyone else, think he's learned his lesson the hard way.
LL, I'm sorry you're feeling down. I know what you mean about the snow. I thought this before, but never told you: I lived in AK for about five years, so I have a pretty good idea about the demands that kind of weather puts on those who plow...and their loved ones.
ll, was thinking of you because i heard it is snowing up your way. of course just freezing rain here! thanks for boosting my pma on my thread. i feel better. lisa
ya it's snowing up here, supposed to get like 20" ugh!! it's not so much that i don't like the snow, I do, hey I've got 4 wheel drive. it's that h left this am at 9:30 and I don't know when I will see him again but i know that when I do...he will be exaughsted from the storm. also a little bummed cause these storms are not totaly predictable there is some waiting time and sometimes that waiting time is spent down there ( bout 25 miles south of home) so this afternoon h had lunch in a resteraunt (by himself but the one he took ow to) and then waiting for more snow to fall went to the appartment to get some rest. just the mention of the appartment bugged me, he didn't intend to go there was going to buddies but buddie was already asleep so he ended up at the apartment. just unsettling for me but h knows it and called as soon as he woke and was talkative and told me to call him when I am going to sleep (otherwise I would not have still have hard time calling him as if it's still not ok)
I worry sometimes, I don't want to push him away and it seems the way he came home was by me just "goind dark" and acting "as if" well what do you do once they come home????
I think this morning I told h like 5 times that I love him, even once called him and said "do you know" h "know what" "how much I love you" I haven't said it for so long I want to say it all the time but can't. I suppose now it is safe? he is home right?
ll, 20"! geez, that's a lot of snow. the restaurant, it's not chilis is it? that used to be one of our faves so when he left he brought Sk. there a lot. i haven't been since. i think it was nice you told h how much you love him, it probably made his day. do you let him tell you first usually? i do now. i am tired of painting, we are working on the house(inside). i can only do it after d goes to bed. i get up with her every morning. i wish i had more alone time. you must relate having 2 little ones! i joke with my h that the only reason i go to work is so i can go to the bathroom in peace!
