Tam, Tam, Tam...NOONE can complete you! God's been trying to complete people forever and look how successful he's been Completing each other is a romantic fantasy that has been put in our heads, it makes what we as DBers are trying to do that much more difficult. How can we get along without the ONE who completes us? Wow. Tam your H is an important and desired part of your life, he has many personal traits that you admire and learn from but he doesn't complete you! Lastly, we spend too much damn time trying to "make ourselves happy" maybe we need to allow what is to just happen and go from there, if that makes any sense. Being HAPPY may be way beyond you right now but it will come! Patience. I also feel for you as your world is so tied up with H, everything is so intertwined and that makes it a tough field to plough when you try to move away a bit. Keep at it, with or without H, you will be a better person in the end!