BeingMe,
Thank you for support. I know you've been having rough go of it lately. I've been reading your post, just haven't posted to you. Your perseverance has been incredible. I wish your H could understand what he's not giving you, much like my W. I only hope that I'm not behaving the same towards W, or even perceived in her eyes. I hope you're able to find the strength to stick it out, but I also know it can be very tiring.


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Nothing new on homefront. W still avoiding setting a time to sit down and discuss. Last night actually very tense around house. W very impatient and corse w/ Ss and myself last night. Was biting everyones heads off, S8 can do no right, S3 more of nuisance. If I try to defend Ss, it only escalates. I just have to try to come in afterwards and console and explain. Sometimes I wish I could have a video recorder to show W what she's like. I still don't think she'd accept it. But the way W treats Ss sometimes is almost enough to say it's not worth trying to work things out. Lessor of 2 evils. D for ever vs. the timeframe they have to indur all of this. Very sad. \:\( This morning just very distant and "formal". I had a bad dream lastnight that W told me she new I was tring to stall and work towards saving M. Told me that in no uncertain terms she would not stay. Didn't really help PMA to wake up w/ that in my head. Will see what today brings. I not expecting any type of contact from W. That ceased a long time ago. She'll no longer call @ work and the only comm is re: the boys or confirming plans for the boys. I'll still send e-mail w/ just the "hi, how ya doing, hope days goes well" kinda stuff, but never any meaningful reply anymore. She's too busy.