yes, we have 2 children 3 and 5. Both girls have been seriously affected by this entire situation. My eldest daughter's school psychologist just told me last week that she had signs of post traumatic stress disorder. It cut like a knife in my heart to hear that.
I know he wants our marriage to be better. He's literally begging me to forgive him and trying his best to make amends. He told me he would follow me wherever I wanted to go and he would do anything to make this work. I love hearing all of this, but I have serious doubts. He hasnt been honest in so long, Im scared that I will second guess him for the rest of our lives. It's really funny that in the beginning I was desperate for him to be here. I thought my life would end if he wasnt in it. Now, Im not sure I want that life back.
I told him that he would have to go to counseling and I told him that our old marriage was completely gone. I said that if we were to start putting this thing together that the whole thing had to be completely new. I told him that during the course of all this pain I fell out of love with him. I told him that the best I could do right now would be to accept a dating kind of arrangement. Does anyone else out there think Im insane for even considering this? Help?
