Just supporting you, and letting you know I know how you feel. I am in a similar sitch, in that I feel like a chicken running around without a head, not knowing in which direction to run. Hope or not to hope ... detach or not detach ... trust or no trust ... stay, go ... ???? I feel caught up in a whirlpool.

Just take it one day at a time, and as Phoenix wrote on my thread, don't make any decisions when in an emotional state (or, words to that affect). As for the email you sent ... sounds like emails I sent my H, 2 years ago. I know how this all sucks, and I feel so bad for your S8 ... the image of him holding his mother's hairband, just breaks my heart. \:\(

Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed.
D35,S/D twins28,D22
EA4/04 End? Who knows?
"Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim