Because a huge part of me is gone and it's gone forever. It was a part of me that I happen to like, and I would love to have that back.
That is exactly how I feel. I adored the man I was married to for so long. Now, i dont have that feeling. I dont feel giddy and happy when I look at him. I feel hurt and confused. I am sure this is normal but is it possible to get that feeling back? I dont want to waste the next ___ years being just friends. But I dont want things the way they were before either. Can this all just start over? Is that possible? I want my children to have their father but I want to be happy too.
