Well, I took some time to really think about the problems in my R, and I can't honestly think of any major issues. Just petty stuff. After I realized that, I decided just to let go completely, yeah I emailed her earlier this month, and yeah I know she has read it, but there isn't anything more I can do.

Then she responded to my email on Sat early morning 6am. I got really upset when I saw it, because I had started to put myself in that mindset that we were through. I was really confused on why this would make me breakdown, everyone said it was a good thing. Basically my email to her, was about this article I had found online and what I should be doing with her mail still being sent to me. I took the advice of Jodi, my DB coach and made it very upbeat and light. Asked her how her mom was feeling, she had some skin cancer that needed to be removed.

In her response back to mine, it said that she had heard about this before I sent her the article, and 'the crazy thing is I thought of you right away.' Then she said I could forward her mail to her address, 'but not the bills she doesn't want those, j/k.' She then said that her mom was feeling a little bit better and had it removed on her birthday (which I totally forgot about). She also said that she was going home for a couple days to help out and be with her. She ended the email with, 'Thanks for the email. It was really good hearing from you!'

So what I did today, not sure if it was the right thing or not, was I sent her mom some spring flowers with a card that read, 'I hope you are feeling better, happy belated birthday!' She will get them this afternoon. I'm not really sure what my next step is, I don't plan on responding to her email for at least a couple days, considering it took her 2 weeks. How should I interpret this? My best friend is getting married in a couple months and I got the invitation with her name on it as well, my friend had already sent it before we separated. My mom thinks I should respond back to email with this, 'I sent your mail today. Got Chris and Carrie's wedding invitation that other day, your name was on the invite. Makes me realize the things I did wrong- that should be our invitation. I'm sorry for my mistakes. I miss you' What do you think? I think I'm going to schedule a second DB session with Jodi to get advice, but thought I would run it through here first. Thanks!