Moving over here from Piecing after H decided to take some more time to decide if he really truly wants to be married. I am trying to adjust and realized I need to decide if I want to be married to him no matter what he decides. I am feeling sad that we are where we are.
Here is a brief review:
Married almost 30 years One D16 H had on/off again affair for 3 plus years (we lived together the whole time) July 2006 he asked me for a D July/Aug 2006 working with divorce mediator. H moved out. Sept 2006 H said he changed his mind
Current situation:
H thinks I'm trying to keep him from having friends (esp FF). He wants to be able to come and go without telling me where he is, who he is with, and when he'll be home. We bought a boat after he moved back. He put it in the water this past Thursday and has been staying there. Has been home only to shower. He took his wedding ring off again.
My quest:
1. Figure out why I am jealous of his FF (I feel I have very valid reasons!!!!). I am actually jealous of the time he spends with friends compared to the time he spends with me!
2. Figure out why I haven't gotten our house decluttered (This is major reason he said he wasn't happy in our marriage. I thought that was a pretty surface reason. Maybe I'm avoiding having a clean house so if he says he wants a divorce I won't feel it's about ME....just the lack of my housecleaning skills).
