W let me know again last night how done she is, has been and will always be. How she can't ever get her feelings for me back. It's so hard not to argue, beg or plead.
She is not wearing her ring, again. She did put it back on for a while, now back to no ring.
In the midst of her rant last night she did say that "if there was any chance, and its a fat chance at that", that she could ever get her feelings back or want to stay married to me, things would have to be drastically different. I won't bore you with all that she said, but I did pick up on the "chance" element. To me that says she hasn't totally closed the door. Or maybe I'm way off, if anyone is reading please feel free to share your thoughts.
It was an intense night. The weird thing is we ML a few hours later. In that department, although the frequency is slightly less, we still ML. Even when though its less frequent, there is usually a realistic reason, in other words, time constraints, one of the kids is sick, or we're just tired and its late.
Is this the part where I cling to the axiom, 'Don't believe anything she says and only half of what she does'?
For instance, today she has been pleasant each time we have chatted on the phone and she is on her way home now from church with D12.
