Is it over for me?

[Yoyowife]

Okay, everyone, 2x4 time for me. Hit me with your best shot.

Last night my D and I went to dinner, a little shopping, and a movie with some friends, mother/daughter, that we have known forever. We had a great time. My H called both of my Ds to see what they were doing. So I'm sure he knew that we were at the movies. So I was proud that he knew I wasn't sitting home on a Friday night. Remember last weekend I did well by going out of town to a women's conference. So I've been doing well on the PMA and GAL.

Well tonight my D's cell rings and I hear her tell whoever she is talking to that she and a friend are just hanging around the house and going to rent a movie. Then I hear her say oh she is in the den. When she got off the phone I said who was that? Your sister? She said no, it was Dad. I was feeling all smug that he had asked about me. I take D and her friend to video store and waited in the car. I had a weak moment and decided to call H. I called him and asked him what he was up to? He said he was helping his dad with something. Then we talked about my day a little. He said he had talked to both daughters to see what they were doing. I said well if you don't have plans why don't you come hang out with me. Okay now take your best shot and swing that 2x4. He said I don't know. I said well you don't have to. He said well I need to come over tomorrow to uncover the pool. I said well you can come over tonight if you want also. I said are you? He said probably not. I said okay, I'll just see you tomorrow and we can uncover the pool.

I was so determined to not contact him. I even reread Dobson's "Love Must be Tough" again and was thinking that's what I need to do. I was going to do it for myself, not just him! I had resolved to be distant, and here I go again! I am so weak!