Quote: "I've stopped trying to make sense of this stuff a long time ago. When I say that I'm calm and un-agitated in the face of this erratic behavior, I truly mean it; I hope this aspect of my DB'ing doesn't change"...."As I said before, all I can do is to stand by and watch her run her little drama. I will not question her about the C'ing session, nor about anything else she did today."
You are DBing very well; maintaining your sanity amidst all her "erratic behavior". I have been DBing since the end of July, and I still have a big problem with detachment and not letting my wife's actions affect me profoundly.
It's sometimes so exhausting to continue the rollercoaster ride. Sometimes you just want to scream to be let off. Sometimes you wonder if all of the anxiety and anguish is worth it, even if your WAW comes back to the marriage months or even years down the road. I struggle with it daily.
Keep up the good PMA, Sam. I seek that place of calm and serenity that you seem to have found. You give me hope. Thanks.
