I actually go to a lutheran church, so theirs not too much speaking out or tongues or dancing, okay, there's none of that! But it is a little bit more contemporary, we're in the bible belt, so it's a little more upbeat around here in Oklahoma.
I'll just let it be in God's time. I just have to continue to show him the love of God by my actions. Boy is that hard sometimes!
I'm listening to that link right now. wow. I just heard her say she prayed for her dad for years, and 4 days before his death he gave his life to God. Totally hit home.
Also, I am sooooooooooo bad. Okay, remember how we need to not make conclusions about stuff? Well, my H mentioned a couple weeks ago that his friend was having a b-day party. That's all he said. no "would you want to go to a party?", "hey can you get a sitter for kids"..etc. So, I let it all go. Then just 2 days ago he mentions the party again and says, not sure what he's doing yet. So then I'm like, oh here we go again, a party that I'm not going to, but there will be a few wives/girlfriends there, but not me. Why does he not like to invite me? ugh. or, it's just he waits till the last minute so that I don't even have a chance, or I don't know.
WELL. I let it go again, never commented about anything. i didn't want to ASK to go. I'm not like that. If he wants me to go, he'll ask. Well, I don't know what he said, something like I wish it was easier for us to do things, and I said, I thought you didn't want me to come, and he said, no, Cannon has chicken pox, and I said, well he's not contagious now.
Well, then he made the excuse that he didn't want to spend 20-30 bucks for a babysitter so we could go. Which is true, but then he just spent 20 bucks on cleaning products for our truck. oh well. That's okay.
My point is this. I totally thought he just didn't want to ask me again, but it was because our s2 had chicken pox, and his friend also has a 2 year old. So, I couldn't believe I had thought that, and I should have said how I felt or something. I just don't want him to think I'm a whiney wife or something.
Well, also, he just left, and he txt me immediately with this.
"I do feel bad bout tonite. Wish things were easier for us to do stuff."
So glad that I was wrong! I need to take my own advice.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
But it is a little bit more contemporary, we're in the bible belt, so it's a little more upbeat around here in Oklahoma.
