Trying to piece at last

[hurtingbad]

Just journalling H came food shopping with us today lol. Me and the kids called at his mams before we went to see if she needed anything getting and H said oh I'll come with you. Then came to my house afterwards and help put it all away then stayed for tea. by this time it was time for me to go to work so he stayed and looked after kids. When he went to go home he went to give me a kiss in front of youngest D :-S was thinking omg we didnt want them to know lol. Luckily he caught my glance and pecked my sheek both sides then pulled a yucky face at D lol. Then asked me to lock door after him where he gave me a lovely kiss with no prying eyes. Feel really positve about how it is going. BUT I'm still trying to keep myself sort of detached incase he still decideds nothing has changed at the end of it. Most of me hopes it will change and we can get back to sorting all the things that need sorting and a tiny little bit of me doesnt want to rush him into coming home cos me and the kids are having a great relationship at the moment, better than it has ever been and am scared if he comes home it may spoil this.

Am I being stupid, should i just let things slide and take them as they come? I am living day to day instead of week to week or month to month like I used to worrying about what next week might bring. So am now living for today and forgetting yesterday and looking forward to tomorrow if you know what I mean.

Hugs HB