I love it! That is a great story. My transitions are usually about 15 entire minutes where I decide that I have made a horrible mistake and have an intense desire to flee - the last one I spent on the toilet thinking all the while that I had a "long time" to go and shoudn't have even checked in yet - this was followed within 5 minutes by an intense desire to push.
My labors are usually VERY short and intense - the last one was about 2 hours. I am also usually early. We'll see what happens. I realized though that because of work, the weather and various other factors I have been way less active this pregnancy so I think that has contributed to the length of it. I took a long walk yesterday and will take at least two today. Supposedly nipple stimulation will get things going but that is a boring thing to do on your own - what I would give to have dh be the kinda of guy that would just say "Great! Let's go to it." Hemming and hawing, wax on/wax off behaviors just make it NOT FUN to ask or bring it up or deal with it at all. There are all these childbirth stories about "sensual or even orgasmic birth" in which the couples kiss and behave sexually throughout labor and have these lovely, connected births - welllllllllll I won't be having that kind.
I am feeling threatened and resentful of dh's continuing level of disconnect from me. He talks with the baby and encourages him to come out but he seems resentful that I thought this baby would be early like my others and then wasn't. He isn't mad at me exactly. He is tired of waiting, anxious and so he just kinda huffs and puffs through his days with chronic, low level angst. Maybe in order to have this baby I need to confront this too. D@mn I'm sick of always being the one to bring things up.
Today is the official "due" date - we'll see. Joseph may just decide to be "prompt" and arrive today yet!
