Monday night we had sort of a intervention with our adult daughters and two of our Christian Elders...
It didn't go so well...H felt ambushed...and he was as I didn't/wasn't able to tell him what it was all about...
He was furious when we got home...and into the next day...I was finally able to tell him that his inability to trust me with his feelings was leading me to feel insecure...I didn't like it...I wasn't afraid of supporting myself...I was afraid of being hurt again for loving someone who wasn't loving me like I should be loved...
I appologized for what happened...did commend him for the good things he was doing...
Since then he has started to show me the affection he had denied me for so long...he also has been trying to be more helpful around the house...
We have been getting along a lot better...so for now...things have settled...I did tell him that he needed a job...by the end of the month...he could at least do part-time...also, he needs to go back to his doctor and to his psychiatrist...he needs help with childhood issues...a mess...but anyway...for now I am heading up hill again...I hope there isn't another cliff at the top!
