I have grown up alot since then. Not to the extent that I should have maybe, but regardless, I have matured. She says she wishes that I had changed back then. I did not possess the maturity and wisdom that I do now. I did not have the the insight and ability to change. Today is different.
Fact is, I wasted it. I should have been handling her heart like a fragile, priceless treasure and didn't. If I ever get it back in my hand, I will.
I suppose that now I have a price to pay and the stakes are very heavy.
More and more I am understanding the error of my ways. I have no other option other than to let go and hope for the best.
Unfortunately, I think the worst is inevitable. As soon as she is prepared enough, I am almost sure it is over.
First of all Puppy....it's never over.
We have all had prices to pay. HUGE ONES. But for that price....are you not a better person? Have you not grown? Realized more about yourself and your actions that ever? I think so....now you posses that wisdom and maturity.
I have and always will thank my H for giving me the opportunity to grow. However, on the downside, he may never see it. But like you...we have to remember that their journey is not about us. I heard the exact same things from my H. Although I am not usually a hard ass by nature.......I am very stubborn!
Remember.....she will do what she wants right now. But...you've grown, matured and are a different man now. She will see it eventually. Don't stop making those wonderful changes in yourself.
Your a good man.....
Jeanette
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