Thanks, 25, for making me not feel so "alone" in my thoughts and feelings. Sometimes it's so hard because most of you have already been through this, and you can look back on it and see what you did that finally made the difference, etc., and you get frustrated seeing me struggle and do the wrong things. It helps to know that you once DID feel the way I feel on some of these issues...
I know I am the only one I have control over. Part of my "control" issues though are that if only I can somehow change me that it will influence those around me when I am not getting what I want. H and I used to be very happy. I can't directly control how he feels about me now, but my psyche tells me that if I can only become the woman he wants to be with that I can get him to love me again. Is that a form of control, or is it simply working on one's self to find love again and to help someone else to find love again as well?
