I understand what you're saying about assuming, Lin. However, I am very intuitive and "detective-like" in my ways... Remember that I have made it unfortunately a habit to check whether he's shaved, what he's wearing, what is or is not up at the office, etc., etc. I have valid reasons to believe what I do. I'm not saying that it does me any good... right now it is what it is. Being away from him and the office will take these things away from me and will hopefully help me to not focus on them so much which in turn will hopefully help me to continue more quickly and effectively along my own journey.
As far as the first paragraph you quoted that I wrote, I know you're probably going to say that I'm prying/pushing/etc. The difficulty is that H does not participate in conversations about us. When we talk about us, for the most part it consists of me asking questions and him answering them - that's it. He doesn't offer any information nor actively participate in the conversation. It's really frustrating and one of the main things I/we need to work on. I simply don't know how to carry on a "normal" conversation with him wherein we both actively participate. Business conversations are great; personal conversations are horrible.
He has told me that he knows I have a right to know what's going on and to talk about it and that I should be able to do that but that it's just so hard for him. He said he can focus for 10 or 15 minutes on personal talks but then just shuts down after that...
