Preparing for the end game, maybe.

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JBF, good words at just the right time. My W (and D) have been in AR buying a house for the last 4 days. I've found I can actually relax and breath without her in the house and in my face. She is coming home today. This morning I'm tense and teary again. Damn.

I'm doing a lot of thinking. I hope to find time to put my thoughts here and I hope to get some insight from the DBers our there, especially you. Basically, I'm trying to figure out the crux of the matter. What am I mainly and really feeling? Is it pain from being rejected? Is it pain from the ambiguity? I am strong. I am OK, even good, on my own. I don't need to do this, so why am I? Love? BS.

But I don't want to give up today. I will try not to agonise over the future. If you've learned that lessson, my friend, you are truly enlightened.

thanks again, and welcome back.