I do not expect Kevin to keep up his end of this thing. My end is simply watch and see what unfolds, I am trying not to doom anything, but past experience tells me this want to be home will last about 2 maybe 3 days... hahah.
I will not let him hurt me again, emotionally, I am perpared. I will let him go, and I will file for divorce.
I have laid down very clear boundaries, and I will stick to them, even if it means that he chooses to leave rather than live by my rules.
I am going to try this thing one lasttime. The right way this time.... he will be put to the test.
I feel that this is the right path, I just had to find a away to seperate what I feel everyone thinks I should do, and I what I want. Some of things I want include:
I want to be a succussful person (with or without Kevin) I want to enjoy my children grow up (again with or without Kevin) I want to work through my past issues (a huge step was taken when I talked to my biological mother) I want to be able to say when I was called to stand, I stood proudly and did not abandon my position.
I will move forward with or without Kevin, I hope he has it in him to stick around, but I certainly don't expect it.
