Hi. Been away for a while, on holiday and then at another interview (didn't get this one either, but am ok with that).
Update: I'm doing pretty well, I think. Keeping busy and dwelling on things much less. Really enjoying lots of quality time with D. She is hard work at times but a real joy. Felt more positive about the possibility of moving away than I did for the previous interview a month ago, so progress has definitely been made.The sunshine here at the moment definitely helps!
Re R. Because we were away, W hasn't seen D in 3 weeks. She texted me to say how badly she was missing her. She did this immediately she got back from her week's holiday in the sun with OM. She seems much keener to make an effort with D and has been apologetic about the trauma she's caused her, the first time really she's acknowledged that. She was keen too to find out how I was getting on at the interview and texted me a few times for an update.
I think with this renewed interest in D she's very scared of us moving 3 hours away. I really am not allowing how she is to affect me in any way and am just letting it wash over me.
Even if she is trying to reconnect with D it doesn't change anything else, though I sense she's also got a renewed impetus to want to be friends with me. I can't really be bothered with being her friend. I have no reason to believe she's not still seeing OM, however their holiday was and I don't want to be second best with her seeing me when he's not available etc. I deserve better.
