Thank you all for the pep talk
I needed to hear it all again

My H actually told me over the weekend that the way I've been acting the last few days - he feels pressured
its amazing how when I start to have a meltdown he seems to be running scared - what more do I need to tell me to back off
One of these days I will learn - I need to stop it NOW

so I've gone back to acting as if - I started thinking too about my D - I want her to see how strong I am and will be no matter what - I owe it to her and myself

I reallly hope he starts seeing his counselor again - I think the reason I started to backslide was I am getting concerned that he is withdrawing and not speaking to anyone about the 'bugs' in his head - I know I cant address it with him
I think I was feelilng like if he could at least talk to a counselor maybe he can work thru some of this
again I want to fast forward and have this resolved
Whenever he acts irrational or I am upset for a snub or brush off I try to remember he is not the person I married

Thanks again for listening
you are all so kind - wish we could have 'met' under different circumstances but I feel fortunate to have you folks to clear my head out a bit


me - 47
H - 50 /49 when bomb happened
Daughter 17 years old
married 21 years
together 26 years
Bomb August 06
H still at home
'I love you but not in love with you'