Thank you all for the pep talk I needed to hear it all again
My H actually told me over the weekend that the way I've been acting the last few days - he feels pressured its amazing how when I start to have a meltdown he seems to be running scared - what more do I need to tell me to back off One of these days I will learn - I need to stop it NOW
so I've gone back to acting as if - I started thinking too about my D - I want her to see how strong I am and will be no matter what - I owe it to her and myself
I reallly hope he starts seeing his counselor again - I think the reason I started to backslide was I am getting concerned that he is withdrawing and not speaking to anyone about the 'bugs' in his head - I know I cant address it with him I think I was feelilng like if he could at least talk to a counselor maybe he can work thru some of this again I want to fast forward and have this resolved Whenever he acts irrational or I am upset for a snub or brush off I try to remember he is not the person I married
Thanks again for listening you are all so kind - wish we could have 'met' under different circumstances but I feel fortunate to have you folks to clear my head out a bit
me - 47 H - 50 /49 when bomb happened Daughter 17 years old married 21 years together 26 years Bomb August 06 H still at home 'I love you but not in love with you'