Not sure what you did that was so bad...but can guess...I remember the second time I met with H to have him sign the second divorce papers...it was hideous to say the least but at that point I figured all was lost and it was really over...
Anyhow...one thing you posted here that I really really REALLY want you to think about LONG AND HARD....is you said something about wanting him to come home....and soon!!! TAM...read my words...YOU ARE NOT READY FOR HIM TO COME HOME....NOT NOW...NOT NEXT WEEK....NOT NEXT MONTH...MAYBE IN 6 MONTHS!!!...Doesn't mean that you can't see him, talk to him, go out...but I can tell you that if you take him back too soon...I think the 3rd time leaving will be the charm that results in H BEING DONE...
You see it is pretty much a given that if he comes home too soon he will leave...more convinced then ever before that he can't live with you....
Your biggest challenge is yet ahead...I just hope you can trust me...and yourself...enough to tell H (if he even asks to come home anytime soon) that you still have some issues within yourself to work out and it would be best to remain apart for now....
You see...I took time...I worked my butt off...I thought I had it all worked out...now I am in a major emotional struggle with H...it is not all romance and flowers right now...it is emotionally draining...and the anxiety can be cut with a knife...and lets not even go near the insecurities that I am dealing with right now...I am keeping things in check as best I can...I do have a strong support system...H is not in a good place mentally....we are talking about him going back to see a Psychiatrist...going to his doctor....and possibly seeing if he can get disability because he is in such a state...
So Tam...take it from someone who really waited the time...you are definitely NOT ready...at the bare minimum DATE if he wants to work on things...do it without living together...because leaving a 3rd time...I just think would be the last time!!!...and no telling what state you would be in....
