I have not spoken to H at all today. I had to forward a few phone and e-mail messages to him but did not "introduce" the messages at all, just forwarded them to him. It's hard, but definitely more manageable since I'm home. The pangs of anxiety are subsiding.
Are you positive that I should not say anything to him about me needing some time to think about things? I wasn't suggesting that I should apologize again for my "freak show," but because of how we left things, I'm worried that he thinks I'm just home "pining away for him." When I went to Vegas, it was much more clear that I was taking some time for me to think about things. Now, I'm afraid that he thinks I'm just retreating and waiting for him rather than empowering myself to do my OWN soul-searching. Does that make sense?
