Could Use Some Input Over here

[RedHeadWife]

Ok, I'm being honest here, I already have lost a lot of my sense of self, self respect, etc. I am so very insecure and have the feeling that I'm not "good enough" or "enough" for H. All of this, I KNOW, is not true, however, I still FEEL this way.

I know that I need to get to the place where I can talk to my H about our R and maybe even the OW, however, since we have been "piecing" for such a short period of time and he is leaving in less than 2 wks, I am so scared of what may occur if I do talk to him, i.e., he will end up getting mad or end up telling me that he still wants a D or something else along these lines.

However, things have been going so well for us. He has been talking long-term in regard to our M and us. It's like nothing ever happened, except I have these trust issues and issues communicating about our R (oh and he still isn't wearing his ring).

I don't think any of my behavior is needy, etc. -- I think everything about my "efforts" are nothing but desirable and have not been made to seem forced at all.

It's not that I'm not taking advice, I honestly am just so scared to bring anything up, bottom line.