Thank you for your thoughts C2H. Things have been going from strength to strength. First to me – I have grown (if I may say so) so much in the Lord these past couple of months. I have learnt to reply almost 90% on Him. When I try do things myself I find I fall so hard it makes my head spin. He has blessed me in ways that I just can’t imagine and would take far too long to write it all down here. I am happy within myself and that’s all due to Jesus… And onto my H and our R. We have spent some time apart – he went on holiday my children went on holiday and I went on holiday all on our own. At first I was not at all happy about this, but my H spent the time thinking and realised what life would be like without his family around. Before he left he was telling me he loved me and generally we were getting on very well. But while he was away he showered me with ILY’s and telling me how sorry he was. I have kept a firm grip on the floor and told him that he was going to have to say it to me face to face and show me – which since I have been back he is trying very hard to do. There are still a couple of things that are bugging me- and at first I was getting really hit up about him changing it – but I came to the realisation yesterday that things do not happen in my time – only God’s time, and my H will continue to change and grow and things will continue to get better. I have not got a band-aid around my marriage. I have the Lord’s arms holding us all together, and with this knowledge I know things will get better. We both know that the road ahead is rocky - but we are both on it together, which makes life a lot easier.
I do not come to these boards often anymore but I would like to thank all of you who have helped and been there in my stitch. The help that these boards gave me was unbelievable, it enabled me to get everything off my chest and most of all it made me feel less lonely as I knew so many of you were in the same boat as me. So I thank you all for that. I pray for all of you – keep your faith and no matter what happens Jesus will always be there for you.
