Life goes on, and it ain't about Job

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Man, I know you have been there and done that. I really appreciate your post. But I still don't get it. I guess the honest answer is that I want both. I want to heal my relationship with my wife and move forward in a positive direction, but I also want to preserve my family and protect my kids.

What I don't get is letting go, but holding on. I want to let go because it all hurts so bad, and is not healthy for anyone, most importantly the kids, but I still see the possibility of a good marriage, and a fulfilling relationship. Each and every day that possibility is erroded more and more by her actions and choices, and it just seems like at the time I feel like letting go, I will also feel like moving on.