I feel the lonliness you are going thru. It is hard to be an only child. I think it is tougher now that we are grown. I sometimes wish I had a brother or sister just to share thoughts with. I am very lucky I have close friends but sometimes I can't tell them what is going on. My H sister is one of my closest friends. She has been so strong for me during all this. She has known what is going on from the start. She still treats H the same but is really disgusted with him. I hate that she knows so much but she has heard alot even from OW SIL. Hows that for a drama. I think I live in a soap opera sometimes.
My friends are married too. They are always good to invite me and I usually go but I know what you mean about the lonliness. It is really a tough one. You just wish you had that hug or closeness back? Am I right? I told my H one day that he didn't have to be lonely because he had her. I know not a smart thing.
Your D's sound like nice girls who are there for you. That means alot. My B's always call to see how I'm doing and if I am alright. That really means alot when they are there for you.
I live in the country so I know how hard it is to find somethings to do. Is there a movie theatre in your town? It is great when your kids are involved. That used to save me because I could stay busy going to the kids activities. Keep yourself involved. Do you have a hobby or a pet?
You are a very strong person and that is very admirable. That is a compliment when you are the "Hot Teacher". Have you done something for yourself. Changed your hair or new outfit? I kinda changed my style of hair and for my birthday I had to by some new pants because of the DBing Diet that you talked about. It is amazing like you said the compliments.
Keep up the good work. You are very strong. I know how hard it is for them to act like they are here with you and you know that they are still seeing the OW. I have to really fight with my self not to snap and say something which I did not to recently.
I am here for you. I can't give you to much info. But I am here....Hang in there.
