No, I'm not making it worse than it was. I can't even bear to tell you guys - it's that bad. You'll all come through the computer to strangle me for my wrongdoings!!!! We left things on a really, really, really bad note - worse than it's ever been. It was mostly my fault. I was feeling good about the move yesterday and what I told him about it, but then multiple backslides occurred the rest of the day to the culmination of the big one last night... I just feel like he's probably got this horrid image of me in his mind right now, and I don't know if I should just let it be and just let my actions speak for themselves and let him go for a while, or if I need to say something to reiterate that I really need some time to think so that he doesn't think I'm just sitting home "waiting" for him to come home. Does that make sense? On the other hand, I don't want to make things worse either... I just want to do the right thing - I want him to be on edge again and give him a chance to miss the "real" me, not the psycho woman I turned into last night. I just feel like I'm doing this now on a sour note and that he's got the wrong image in his mind for me to leave the office with... What do you think?
