Just to clarify, cac's post was not written because he had a convo with me. We haven't spoken about the board today. I was out this afternoon, so I was just catching up here a little while ago.

There are a few points I want to make. First, my sexuality and my parents' role in it is an EXTREMELY sensitive subject for me. I know that may not come across because I write openly about my experiences. Nonetheless, the whole subject leaves me feeling very vulnerable. I guess I require handling with kid gloves when it comes to this topic. I think that may be due to my inherent sensitivities and also due to it being a fairly recent revelation. As Cobra observed during my LD thread, I'm just not there yet.

Second, I really was just musing. I wasn't looking for advice or suggestions. If I am looking for advice I will ask for it specifically and then I will take what I get because I asked.

I think this may be a Mars/Venus thing. This happens sometimes with cac where I'll speak my thoughts out loud and he'll try to come up with solutions or suggestions for me. All I'm really doing is talking. Just putting out my thoughts, speaking them out loud. I learn a lot and process much more efficiently when I talk or put my thoughts down on "paper." I have told him this.

And about the blame: yes, right now I am blaming my parents. I have to do that so I can stop blaming myself. From this point on, I agree that my life and my choices are my responsibility. But, for most of my adult life, I was unaware of the extent to which my parents' behavior negatively affected my sexuality. Good grief, I've been labeled an LD person, with all its negative connotations, when everyone knows that the only healthy way to be is HD. I never connected my LDness with my childhood until a few months ago. I just thought there was something wrong with me! Now I know there isn't. So, yes, I'm pissed off right now. It is part of the process. It won't always be so.

I didn't believe you meant any malice. I don't think most people do. I think you were trying to help. I just thought the post was a little "in my face." Perhaps confrontational is the right word. I'm not big on that. That's all. I'm not going to ask you to stop posting to me.