CL, I guess I haven't accepted being alone yet. It's been a tough year. My oldest D went off to college for the first time in Aug. and then in Oct. H dropped bomb.
I feel so alone many times. My mother died several years ago and my dad lives in another state. I have several wonderful friends, but they are married and I don't want to intrude on their family times. Don't get me wrong I do go out with friends every so often though. I have a couple of friends who have been angels through all of this.
I also live in a town where there are not many activities to get involved in. Thankfully, I have my youngest D who keeps me very active. She is involved in lots of things so I go and support her. I'm friends with many of the parents who also attend the events.
YoYo, It sounds like you've gone thru a series of losses in a short period of time--death of mother, daughter off to college, separation with H. It's no wonder your reeling from this. It also sounds like you appreciate the positives you have in your life--your activities with your D, your network of other parents, and your friends. However, the loneliness lingers on.
It sounds like you need to branch-out and try some new activities. Your current activities don't sustain you enough given the losses you've had. You need to replace the positives you used to have with new connections.
You haven't taken advantage of the freedom that you currently have. This is an opportunity for personal growth. What kind of interests and talents do you have that you might like to cultivate? What activities did you used to enjoy when you were single or childless, and could be taken-up again? I recommend that you begin brainstorming.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
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