What changed was I all of a sudden saw my H differently. To me, D was never an option so I had completely gotten very complacent in the M and our R. I was being the "mom" and doing what I had to do. He said to me one time that he felt I had become very angry, bitter & tired. How true. I also was totally taking him for granted.
When I actually realized that it was possible for me to lose him, I actually began seeing him differently -- I now realize how very physically attractive he is to me. (and probably is to other women as well).
Maybe it was the drama or just my survival instincts kicking in, but I was constantly horny at the beginning of this whole sitch and actually it only seemed to slow down in the last few days. But even as it has slowed down, I have continued to initiate and am still O'ing like never before too.
I'm not sure how others would react, but that's what happened w/ me and I was LD for years.
I never realized until this whole sitch that every time I turned him away when he wanted to ML, he felt rejected. The roles were actually reversed for a time and now I understand where he was coming from. I ended up having a lot of the feelings he had had for so many years during the time that he was wanting to leave and I was DB'ing and trying to get him back.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
