Well yesterday came and went and I saw my W and kids for a total of 20 minutes. I tried to start some small talk last night but my W was unresponsive.. oh well...probably better that way rightnow.
I have been re-reading parts of Love Must be Tough by Dobson and am really considering taking his advice. I am now praying for the timing of it all, which is tough rightnow since I will be going out of town for a week starting this weekend.
Even though she is cold to me she is still sleeping in the same bed. I think she still takes comfort in the security that I provide, but, she is still running around being unbelievable selfish. Reflecting back on our marriage there has been a pattern of me giving things up that I held dear to me for her and her not even recognizing it. Not to say that I have been perfect through the years, Lord knows that I haven't, but I have given up a lot for her to make her happy and this is how I am thanked.
I had a pretty good day yesterday, but, today emotionally is hard. I am thankfull for my friends and family, I know that they love me.... But I long for my W to love me too.
She said to me the other day that we were just friends. I totally disagree with her, friends enjoy each others company we do not at this point.
I hope everyone is doing well and that your sitch has more hope then mine.
