I really dont have much to add. You have been getting great advice. I see my impatience in you. KAW is right it took 16 months to make the mess it make take 16 to fix it. Think of it this way. There are times when I am doing a project and half way through it I get tired of it. I take a break come back and finish it. And then I wonder why I thought it was so bad. You need a break. Then set up some goals and mile markers so you can see your progress. You are strong enough to do this. Look how much you have already accomplished. Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you and will pray for you and your W.
