Thank you all for the advice. I need to get my head around ... and relax for awhile, and figure out what I want to do. Which is hard for me, because I KNOW that everyone thinks I should hate him. Everyone says I should walk away.
I don't know if it's what I want or if I just don't think there is another choice.
I am going into this cautiously, I will be restrained. But I am going to give it one more whirl. I told him I would file for the D instantiously if I found out he was even still talking to the OW. I told him I didn't trust him and it might take years. I told him about how his words mean nothing and he has to prove this through actions.
I will come around when I've gotten my head on straight.
But Amy this is the first time I disagree with you. I don't see a monster, not at all. I see a very very confused man.... who screwed up over and over and over. I see a man who has been living a shell of a life for too long. I pity my "monster", and I know that even God could take that monsters heart and turn it back. I am just going to keep praying for Kevin AND ABOUT Kevin... I need the guidance. Thank you all...
