Making the leap - Hopefully wount Jinx it!

[hes_my_man2]

Ok..so I'm gonna be the bad guy and say, maybe you'll get hit sometime in the future while out driving and get killed.

What are you going to do? Stay home the whole time?? Is that anyway to live????

My new motto: No more waiting for the other shoe to drop...I'm gonna go barefoot from now on!!!

MAKE THE CHOICE.

[limbo]

I get it! I really do! I have to let go! I know! My H used to say you can't live by what if's and it holds true here!!
I love your motto! I think I will adopt that myself if you don't mind!!

[hes_my_man2]

Sure...use it..tattoo it...I don't care as long as you believe it and live it!

However, it does make me sad since I'm a HUGE flip flop girl...but on the bright side...going barefoot all the time is perfect validation for weekly pedicures

[limbo]

I start out with the best intentions to, and always seem to flip flop! I know that i am going to destroy my marriage!
We had a bit of an issue yesterday, my doing, been on the computer, checked cell phone records and saw there were 2 text message sent while we were with family, now he never normally sends text, so of course I was upset, and he can tell, so he kept asking, and asking and finally I told him, of course he denied it, which I know is crap.
So anyways, we talked and he said he wount live much longer like this, I said I understood, however I stood by him threw all of his issue's never berated, yelled anything, however he doesn't seem to be able to give me the same consideration, he sais he doesn't know why!
So basically things have been left like this, he says he wants the marriage, and loves me, but I have to wonder if he really does.

[limbo]

So things seem to be going ok, its my bday tomorrow, and I told him that I wanted 2 things, one is a happy marriage, and the other was for him to go back to his c, he was suffering from a major depression, he is alot better now, however I don't feel he dealt with the issues properly, he only went to about 4 sessions and then stopped.
He lets it slip from time to time about different things, that make it obvious he still has issues that need to be dealt with, I think that they were getting to the hard stuff in therapy and that's why he stopped.
He hasn't said much about the therapy thing, and I have pushed it anymore, so we will see what happens. Although the plus side he didn't get mad or anything and took it well.
We are having a h*ll of a time with our 14yr old D! she is really testing the limits, especially mine, to be honest I have been worried that she is angry at for how I have handle things, maybe she thinks I should have kicked h out, maybe she thinks less of me because I kept him! It worries me that she may have problems later in life with her relationships because of this.
At one point she said she hated me and her dad and that he could go off and have as many affairs as he wants!
So I am at my wits end! life just doesn't seem to want to settle into any kind of calm!