Hi Jethro, You've done good coming here and writing all this down without saying anything to your wife today. Do it as often as you need to. What has happened ... happened. How you deal with it is YOUR issue, not hers.
This is not easy to get through, can never be ... and after only a week if you're not going through a world of hurt, then you just wouldn't be human. Your anger and your pain is blinding you to the love you have for your wife right now. Guy, you're surfing an emotional wave whether you want to or not. You have to ride it out, but it won't last. I guess you're gonna have to trust me on this one ...
Quote: I almost feel like we will never have the same R again...or even as good as it was in the past.
The way I figure it is the old R is dead and gone in the past ... along with it the A. Nothing you decide to do from this day forth will change what has happened in the past, so all you can do is bury it (metaphorically speaking of coarse!). I figure myself lucky to have a second chance at a reborn R with my wife, and with anything new, there is always the possiblity of it being better and in many ways it is. The A will always be there in the past and like anything that is dead and buried, there will always be times of rememberance, but when I compared that time to what I have now, those thoughts quickly get cast aside.
Jethro, I'm stating this because you are in the midst of a dark time where it may seem all is lost, but I want you to know as I'm speaking from personal experience, just give it time and ride it out and one day you can wake up and see things in a whole different light.
