Pull at the scabs, and the wounds will re-open --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
This metaphore really hit home with me - I will think about this if I ever feel like picking at the scabs.
Well, although I fully agree with KAW, I do think I need to have a well-deserved grieving period to experience all of my pain, frustration, and anger so it does not haunt me in the future. I can only heal this way. Once I get through this, I never want to go back to it (although a bit unrealistic), so I'm allowing the feelings come a little hard.
Quote: it sounds like you are doing it in a constructive way, as the outcome shows. Sounds like you are going to slow down a bit now, which will be healthy.
Well, I don't know that it's all that constructive. When I ask what my goal is, I know this delays it. But, I think, in the long run it will help ME. I am going to slow it down now, though. I've had enough for a while and want something a little light.