Ok so you asked the ILY ?. She gave you an honest answer. I dont she was trying to hurt you. IMHO I dont think she really knows yet what she feels. Let it go. When she is ready she will tell you. I do think I love evolves. And yes I do think the passion will come back. But I think when it will take a long time. But it will be worth the wait.
Interesting she isnt want to burden you anymore with her pain. It makes me think that she cares very much for you and wishes she could take it all away. She needs time to forgive herself. Does she know that you forgive her? Have you? At least she is dealing with it differently now.
I know the images in your head are terrible. But you are only hurt yourself more. Keep being the new you.
