I know you're really hurting right now. I can't say I understand, because she hasn't admitted to me yet. I have no idea how I'll respond. The fact that she hasn't admitted yet still gives me the small hope that nothing has happened yet, even though common sense says otherwise. All I know is that your W is coming back to you. This probably won't help much, but look at it this way. You were stacked up against OM, and you won, with flying colors. She chose YOU, not him. It was her own decision, without any pressure from you. Will it be easy from here on out? Of course not. Will the A always be lingering in the background? Perhaps. I think it's normal to have a grieving period after something like this. Hopefully, she understands that. And I think she does.
And I'm going to be a hypocrite with this next part, but what good does knowing exactly what happened between them do? It's just going to eat you up, and it won't help you come to peace any quicker. In all honesty, whatever you're imagining is probably a lot worse than what really happened. Why is it that we have to know all the sordid details? I don't know, but I'm guilty of it as well.
I know God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much.
