Just got caught up on your sitch since I have been off and on the past week or so.
You and I feel the same way. The only diff is that I found out in sept that W had a PA, but didnt and still dont know for sure who it was. I am 99% positive though I know who it is.
I know EXACTLY how you feel. The visions, the pain, the ANGER. I feel like I want to just blow up and go off on her sometimes. I also have a lot of anger built up towards OM since he knew she was married, he is married. I am not a fighter, well, try to avoid them when I can, but I really really want to hurt him.
Reading your sitch has helped me out a bunch. I feel that my W and I will not be able to move on until this A issue is resolved. Same with your sitch. I figured out last week that she is still hung up on it too, that its not just me.
I feel for you man because we are in the exact same boat. I am here for you when you need me and I know that you are here for me too. Your input on my sitch has helped me a ton and hopefully mine has done the same for you.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.