Just wanted to stop in and let you know you have been in my thoughts and prayers today.
As promised as I prayed for everyone here on the bb going through these trials and tribulations, I specifically lifted your situation up to God.
Later this evening I started feeling bad again and almost didn't go to church but I am glad I pulled myself together and went. Tonight's sermon was on forgiving and forgetting. Throughout the sermon you and your family kept coming into my mind. Preacher said in order to forget something whether is a sin against ourselves or others we must forgive us or them first. It is in forgiving that we can look forward into the future and slowly forget the wrong-doing.
While sitting here I was reminded of how my parents had separated about 20 years ago. I briefly spoke to my Mom about this when H first left. My Dad while gone had a PA and was gone for nearly two years. Mom said that she really didn't remember much of the details anymore. I remember wondering how she could ever forget such a thing. I now know why the memories faded in time b/c she had forgiven my father for what he had done.
Bellis, think of this way. Even though your Ws body is like a forbidden temple for anyone to touch. The OM didn't get the most important thing and that's her spirit/soul. That she kept for you. One day we will leave this flesh here on earth and our souls will go live with the Lord. And we will rejoin our families in heaven. So this past year will become a faded memory when you think of the eternity you and her will share together.
My mind is running kinda of wild tonight. I did ask the Lord to settle my thoughts while I wrote this post. I hope some of this makes sense.
