Quoting RJJ:Not to downplay your pain, but I really do see your situation just getting better from this turning point.
Thanks RJJ. I agree that this is a turning point. In fact, if you remember, that is the name of my W's latest CD. So, she clearly feels the same way.
Quoting Dienne:you can all begin to heal and move forward. I can image it is hard for you, the visions of your W and the OM entering your mind without invitation. No answers for you on this one, although, punishing your W probably wont be the answer.
The visions are awful. I'm finding I put my hands on my head try and make them go away...lot of good that does. Dienne, I'll tell you what, I really do feel like punishing her. I've been punished for over a year, find out she's had an A, then need to forgive and forget...move forward. I know my sitch looks great to everyone, but dammit, it hurts. She keeps saying, "We'll get through this. Things will get better." Easy for her to say. She wasn't the one walking on pins an needles for a year. She's not the one that went out to improve herself and try and change. She's the one that decided going and having a bunch of drinks at a bar and sleeping with someone else was the answer!
Sorry for the rant, Dienne. I'm so very angry. I've been nothing but faithful and supportive our entire M. I'm not saying I'm perfect by any means, but come on! This is BS. "Yeah, I treated you like crap for 15 months, I didn't give you the time of day, I was cruel to you often, and I decided to sleep with another man because I didn't feel right about myself!" C'mon! I've worked so very hard to get her back and I feel like pushing her away! It's awful! She better start DBing my a$$ for a change!
I guess I've entered the angry phase already??? Sorry, guys...
Quoting Jim: It was nice seeing you Friday, even though you probably weren't in the best of moods. Still, there are so many positives in your sitch.
It was great seeing you too, Jim. I agree my sitch is extremely positive. You know, my greatest fear (besides a loved one dying), a fear that I have had nightmares about for years, is my W's infidelity. I don't know, maybe I have issues or something, but it's interesting how the universe comes back and bites you in the a$$.
Sorry, guys...
