I had a meltdown and did everything I wasn't supposed to do.....I think being lonely is getting to me. I emailed him with somemore gossip about the OW that she was planning to go with me H when he left for his next job. weak moment on my part.
My H and I have a strange relationship about talking to each other. HE talks to me all the time. So this morning when I got up I sent him an email saying I shouldn't have told him the gossip that it didn't matter. if he believed her or not.
I then had to go a little deeper aboout how I am lonely and missed being held and having the close ness of sex. and if I couldn't satisfy him. What An idiot I am......
I told hime we are in a tough situation with his brother and the business and my husband feels he needs to be there for his brother but has no life of his own. That I have always supported him and have beeen here for him.
Guys just yell at me. I am usually stronger thatn this but sometimes I have there meltdowns. What I do? I can't believe I sent the emails what an idiot....
