My Heart's Journey into the Unknown

[lovingme]

Hugs Nicola ~ I know how you feel and I wish I could give some concrete advice. I have tried being friends with h for the last year and a half even though he is living with someone else. It was extremely hard at some points and I think in the end it was detrimental to me. It made the process harder for me. It made me hang on to hope that he might still love me somewhere deep down inside. It made me think about how we could get along, joke, and laugh yet he doesn't want to be with me. It made me think of how things could be yet he wouldn't give me a chance.

Now I have decided it is time to not be so friendly. Truly he doesn't deserve my friendship. If I had a friend treat me the way he does I wouldn't put up with it or keep them as a friend so why do I h? I know I have to be civil with thim for the boys yet I will avoid him as much as possible and I will not be open for friendly chats anymore. He has hurt me and he doesn't deserve for me to act friendly and act like it doesn't hurt or bother me so that he can feel better about things.

Sorry for the ramble there but I have been thinking alot about this the last few days.

Much Love!