Matilda, I've been conflicted all day about going to this party. I don't want to be in the same room with my W, at a social function. I'm being a "scaredy-cat."
This is one of those patterns I need to break (my 180). I need to get used to being independent in the community. I will be part of the dance community in the future still M, or D.
I think I'll plan on staying an hour, and reevaluating. I think as long as I respect my W's distance, I should be OK. It's clear she wants us to be known as "casual live-in something or other." My guess is people can "smell" that something isn't quite right with us, but respect our privacy.
This is my community too. I need to cultivate my connections in the dance community, regardless of the state of my M. I need to honor my RSVP. It would be an opportunity lost if I failed to go.
Thanks again for the pep talk. I was starting to talk myself out of going.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
