My Heart's Journey into the Unknown

[I_Still_Love_Him]

Nicola,

Now I'm wondering if THAT was the right decision!! ARGH! This whole thing (MLC) has turned me into an indecisive wreck.

I know exactly what you mean. I can't seem to make a decision outside of work if my life depended on it. I think it's out of fear of making another mistake; whether it's to date or not, to stand or not, what to have for dinner. I've never been this indecisive in my life; I've always known exactly what I wanted.

I do think you did the right thing of cancelling your membership. IMHO, I do not believe you are ready for any serious R. I am with FIB on this one. It is okay to meet new people and go out for dinner and such and then saying Thank You. Go out to meet people and not necessarily look for another R. When the right person comes along, you'll know. Just because you go for dinner, doesn't mean you need to take it any further. You have to be happy with yourself first before you can be happy with someone else.

I know you've been separated for some time now but going through the whole D sitch, has probably, set you back a bit. I know, I'm going through it just when I thought I was doing so well. Deal with one sitch at a time. You don't need anymore confusion in your life.

Sounds like you are already keeping busy with the home, the kids, your friends and family. This is going to take time and I feel like you're trying to rush things. You have a lifetime ahead of you.

Hugs,
ISLH