"My head-strong ways and impatience and hurt just get the best of me sometimes"
Knowledge is power sweetie. Here's a place to start: Start noticing what triggers your head-strong actions/impatience, and come up with something to do when you start feeling that way...pinch yourself, count to 500, leave the room, ANYTHING to break the cycle. The more you can stop yourself, the better you'll feel about yourself, and the better the sitch will become.
Also, it's vital to have a PMA, but you need to look for the positives in yourself, hon. Hanging all your hopes on H's words is like building the Sears Tower on a foundation of sand, because he's just saying the words he knows you want to hear. It's essential to have hope, but please focus on the hope that someday YOU will be in a better place, rather than that H will someday wake up and bring you to a better place.
Understand the difference? It's subtle, but powerful.
